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There so many thing in this world that I want everybody to know. They never know the way tears inside me. I wish sometime I have a way to take it all away. If it takes forever, I will they know. No matter what I do, I cant make them feel better. If I can only find the answer. If I can. I wont give up till its over. I wont!!

why

Hari aku makin nampak penhujung. even aku da go on, but im still can find my strenght back. im tired being a person that i wont. Prob aku makin bertambah, dari hari ke hari. Aku cme berdoa. moga aku jadi insan tabah. Ketentuan allah memang tak boleh di duga dan di nafikan. hidup seorang. family jauh tanpa khabar aku dengar sampai ke hari ini. sampai bila aku harus mengharap kepada insan yang mampu bantu aku dapatkan family aku. sampai ke hari ini dia masih buat tak tahu. ya allah. kuatkan aku. aku lemah saat ini. sampai bila aku harus mengharap. study aku da jauh tertinggal. kerja mcm ini pon aku tak larat kalo setakat SPM level. serius. aku mahukan perubahan. >.<

just hope

Akhirnya aku kerja da. huhuhu.. Penat la juga, aku kne layan budak-budak kolej sbb aku keja kt CC. Dorg selalu dtg nk on9, nk print, n mcm2 lg...

seronok time kerja, stress xwujud pon. tapi penat sebab tempat keja jauh. kena jalan kaki. huahuahuahua...

ingat nk beli motor la pas dpt gaji..hahaha...yg penting amek lesen dulu. cari duit memang susah. xde benda senang kt dunia nei. hidup mmg payah, tapi kena teruskn juga...

for this time i just keep in low profile... eh, aku mmg low profile pon..hahahaha

-_-'

Saat ini aku Cuma ingin menjerit. KENAPA DAN KENAPA!!!!!!????????

Bila mana aku mencuba yang terbaik aku. Aku mencuba. Mula aku rasa nk rebah semula. Mengapa perasaan ini menghalang aku. WARGHHHHH!!!!!!

Rasa nak gila aku dibuatnya. I'm feel so broken at this time. But I should accept all the pain. Maybe I should say, NEVER SAY NEVER. I will prove you wrong. I will…!!!

WELCOME TO MY LIFE

In this moment, i cry. No one try to SAVE ME. FINE, before my life get end

i will show them, im prove them wrong. I will go on without everyone i have before. i know i can. i will prove that.

SIMPLE PLAN - Welcome to my life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like, to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
Well deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

move on for a while

 For a while, after have a nice talk with my friend. im gotta feel my empty space. forget for a while. lupakan buat sementara waktu, makin dipikir makin sakit kapla ku. urm.. kerja..kerja..kerja kilang pon aq xkisah da.. 

start aq tulis benda nei. aq akn cari kerja. da dapat bru blh pk blik semua masalah..hahaha bru smbg tulis blog balik. pening aq pk...kurgkn dulu pikiran yg buat sakit... peace^^'

lps tue..bwu smbg belajar blik..i make so much wrong decision before this. urm....



status; masih migrain...bwu pas telan panadol 13 biji....belum ada effect lg.... >.<

Sad By Now ;'(

Semalam aku gaduh ngan papa aq, atas pilihan aq yg cme nk go on. Skrg, dia xambik taw da pasal aq.. ;'(

sedih sgt, then aq try ckp dgn "someone". Only she can help me to make my father trust me back. But, she

also let me in this situation. Ya allah. adakah pilihan aq salah?

Then aq mle la duk piki. piki itu ini, smpai migrain aq rasa. smpai aq hentak kepala aq kt dinidng. sakit terhantuk sakit lagi di dalam kepala aq.  Why could this happen? i really dont understand. Someone we chose, but she still refuse. sakit otak aq pk.

To the one i mean. plz understand, just help me to get my father trust back. he so disappointend with my chose. then he ask me to get the thing i chose before he can trust me back. oh god. plz help me.

;'(

[aq sedih sgt....migrain gle, aq minta tlg kwn2 aq..tp...urm...aq kua bli air pon smpai jatuh tangga...luka tngn aq...jatuh air yg aq bli..sedih gle...smpai cmnei aq rasa...]

dedicated to THALASEMIA Members

 Sometime, we wish never get these disease, but this is our fate. Jenuh juga bila setiap kali kne pergi hospital, check darah. kalo kurg, tmbh darah. aq kdg2 kne thn smpai seminggu..sdih..tp ini la hidup... nk wt cmne..sabar terima. mgkn ini anugerah. yang baik semua dtg dari allah. last treatment aq. bulan lepas. tp nasib bek xtmbh darah. even keadaan aq da kritikal gak la.. only god know.. ada yg dapat khabar.. u will survive only for a few years.. urm..kesian mereka...aq? only allah yg taw... >.<..skrg nei...aq da mle teruk2..bdn mkin lemah..nose bleeding mkin teruk..rambut mkin gugur pon da mkin byk..xlme blh botak la cmnei...

"Save You"

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
(Oh)
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (oh) 

simple plan - untitled

I open my eyes

I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light

I can’t remember how

I can’t remember why

I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain

And I can’t make it go away

No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I’m slipping off the edge

I’m hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can’t explain what happened

And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done

No I can’t

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

i miss them so much

     Rindu sangat dengan papa mama. ;(

seronoknye kalo kt kg sekarang. mesti blh dengar gelak tawa dorg. Entah mkn ke tidak, sihat ke tidak. dorg la pembakar semangat aku utk terus bertahan dengan hidup ini. Harap papa mama sihat selalu. Alhamdulillah papa da sembuh dari sakit dia. syukur sangat. Tanpa dorg, aku xkn belajar jauh2. tp syg, aku sendiri sia2kn peluang dorg bg. xpe. masih ada kesempatan lagi tuk aq bg dorg tgk aq berjaya. harap dorg gembira. 

 :)

SAYANG PAPA MAMA SANGAT2!!!!